Chickadee Season... I Con-Seed

No... I CONCEDE... to coloring my hair... painting my toes...feeling my hot flashes... being overtaken by awe...yelling when I want...blushing at a sunrise... picking at my cuticles.... humming an old song...not trusting my self .... showing my feathers... holding back.... letting go....giving myself to worry...there's always something pulling good or bad...

even in the woods where I think no one can see... where no one can hear...

where I think no one notices...

in the quiet...



in the fray...

in the shadows...

in the solitude...

in the sun....

even in my sharing .... I know His Eye Is On The Sparrow ..... and His eye is on us too!!! Please listen !!!

Summers 2009 Pictogragh

I need to capture the fragments of summer that wove themselves in and out of the time I spent down in Detroit. My thoughts were somewhere above all of it... half here... on this place called earth and half trying to invision what the real heavens beyond would be like. Something tells me that heaven is what you love...magnified beyond all comprehension... IMAGINE THAT !!! I think I'm ready for the next stage of my life...

The Stitching Department

Here's my sitting spot...
2 left over pennants from last year sewn on diag for a table topper??? Now we're on to something.... Time to move on with all of it.. .moot point being this is all about fun... purveying or finishing, wiping off my glasses for anew take... fresher ideas.

The last weeks, I sat and made up some small pages with felt... cathartic because Dad was walking on both sides then.. ... I put alot of stitches into the block shown in previous post ... little prayers as time went on..

Sis had scraps she let me peruse... back in March ?... I sewed these up...

The obligatory cell pouch was made when I had to keep connected with the world.. Arrggghhh..... That damn "phone call" seemed to live constantly in my pocket and I hated it.

and another "postcard square" found it's way into a box . Not much..... but I wasn't a total dud in keeping the needle going, small stitches were good for my soul.


perusing old notes and quilt books again .....contemplating a patterned quilt and one I've done before...Leafy Rosey by Kaffe Fassett is in the running. It uses lots of scraps and variety. Checking out this pattern by Exhuberant Color.... too, how it's so simply cut to make such an easy whole...maybe? .. This fabric has to start getting used up... If I've learned nothing at all recently, its "Use it up, wear it out or give it away"... I'm working on that now.... Nothing here at the house is above ending up at St Vincents or being repurposed for something else. I love being ruthless, it cements "the promise" that I'll always have what I need.

I'm really looking forward to winter this year

Rebuilding Foundations and a Thank You...

Jane with arms crossed- Concrete-July 2006 Do I Look Happy? Really I Am!

I've had a bad habit the majority of my life for plunging ahead and skipping steps, adamant to my sense of right and wrong. and stubborn accepting my own intuitions... I've always known there's a natural progression to things but lately I've had to admit that no matter how I try to steer them (or think I am) I keep ending back at the same place ... it's become obvious to the point where God above is no longer whispering to me but knocking me upside the head to listen to the real plan that I have no control over. I can't keep pushing my way through life against the grain of the universe and silencing the voice that keeps telling me that what I'm doing just isn't working. This was true way back in September... duh...another 3 months wasted to denial for not listening.Big family pow wow later, it's been decided that I leave here for awhile....No need to freak... it's no separation or divorce for D and I...I've just got to go back home while there still is home.

Now help me??? What do I pack to leave what I know?

Home Fires Burning 2008

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I want to thank everybody for voting on my CQ Autumn Burst via Quilting Gallery (please check the Gallery out).... It was neck and neck for awhile but the numbers won out... it was something fun and with the close vote... hey, anything could have happened.... THANKS TO YOU ALL !!!, I may try something like it again,or NOT. ...It was a small time thrill none the less, LOL!

Its All a Part of the Picture to Come

There's no point in trying to decide if I can wear white after Labor Day...

not when there's wood smoke in the sky..
when the fawns have lost their spots...

and tinges of color have crept in over night...
to places untouched yesterday...

But theres still places where color hasn't been thought out yet...

where the forest meets the still warm waters...
and the sky resides clearer there in its autumn reflections...
the fruits of fall are upon us... time for flannels and camo indeed as the changes settle in
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The day is young and chronic chores eminent but the next 24 are unscheduled freedom as D has gone to the Soo to visit a friend. The morn was lazy awesomeness for me as you can see from photos above and after my meeting with the vac and the never ending spewing sink... I'll be in the thralls of solitary bliss until tomorrow afternoon!!!! ( I have not been alone in this house for a day since July 2007)

My bookish, questioning self has been the busy one this past week, art, craft, thought and life clammoring to find their cohesiveness together... has led me to reading some things that pertain to my selfs truthfullness and place in the big picture of it all .....

"A happy life is one which is in accordance with its own nature." Seneca

"Make yourselves nests of pleasant thoughts. None of us yet know what fairy palaces we may build of beautiful thought; proof against all adversity. Bright fancies, satisfied memories, noble histories, faithful sayings, treasure houses of precious and restful thought, which care cannot disturb, nor pain make gloomy, nor poverty take away from us - houses built without hands for souls to live in." John Ruskin

"Whatever you are by nature, keep to it: never desert your line of talent. Be what nature intended you for and you will succeed." Sydney Smith

"No man can produce great things who is not thoroughly sincere in dealing with himself." James Russell Lowell

"You owe no one as much as you owe yourself. You owe yourself the action that opens for you the doors of goodness, the variety, and the excitement of effort and sucess, of battle and victory. Making payments on this debt to yourself is the exact opposite of selfishness. You can best pay your debt to society, that has made you what you are, by just yourself with all your might and as a matter of course... You fullfill the promise that lies latent within you by keeping your promises to yourself" David Harold Fink

"To thine own self be true" William Shakespeare Hamlet portioned

and the best... a work of great perponderousity.... Self Reliance written by Ralph Waldo Emerson

Its a 2 post day, I can feel it...